I think I may have anxitey. I believe I have had it since I was a child, and growing up in an abusive house hold. It had nothing to with abuse towards me, but my mother. I have experience depersion, where I have thought about taking my life, I never wanted to go to school, I was scared to speak in school, to my family, I had no friends, I felt compltely alone. As I reached my sophmore year my depersion was more in the backround. Yet, I still am and was shaky and fearful of speaking to new people. Anger and fustartion came out a lot more. Now since I have graduated and see all of my friends doing well, and I can't pick up faster then they can. I have become intense, snippy, cant sleep, cry, and try my best for my family and friends not to see. I dont know how to speak to my family, because of judgement and the fact that I may look crazy. Yet I need help before I go back to hell agian. I just need advice to see if its something to speak about or im just a lonney tune. Also I have just went to the doctors for lupus test, because of protein leaks in my urine. Can lupus be a possability of this?
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