Problem

i have i problem with my family and my relation ship with my boyfriend i have a problem becaude of him i love him so much and i can t slip and eat so much im so confus i can t even think i don t now what to do because my parents tell me do not speak to him any more but can t but my boyfriend his married and have i son a boy his 2 years old small he want to divorce and married me and i don t know what to do im 18 years old and he tell me that i married by secert and after say to my parent but i dont my parent want to kill him because they think that his not i good guy but i dont i can t talk to any body that i seak to him what can i do its to hard to have i dussicion and no body help u but i can t sleep and i can t eat like humain plus my had always pain plus all they tchet on me what can i do?