Hi,
I'm a profession trader in currency market. As a part of my trading learning I had read books on trading and psychology. Then I started to see the flaws that were ingrained in my nature. The very things that held me back from living life to full.
One of the main source of my misery arises from my father. He has emotionally abused the entire family and still continues to mentally torture me. The destructive environment I was brought up in, I've few problems as Low trust in others, feeling betrayed, unloved, unworthy. Seeing how my parents interact, I've got into believing in relationship one only finds faults in others and criticizes. I worry when I have a partner, She will find flaws of me and make fun out of it. The definitions of relationships and life are all misconstrued in my life. I'm slowly working on them to change my outlook towards life.
The problem is passively some of his worst behaviors have become part of me. Being sarcastic is one of the problems. I tend to realize I was sarcastic in my conversation or comment, after I've done the act. It has led to people keeping a distance from me. I guess some remarks in life are on borderline but the image/impression that is fitted in people's mind is difficult to change. I'm unable to sort out this problem.
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